Finally In

We're finally in our house! We don't have internet right now though so I'm using my parents for now. I'm hoping we get it this week. I've got pretty much all the big stuff organized where I want them, now to unpack all the boxes of junk and organize the garage!

Can't wait!

Well we're supposed to be able to start moving tomorrow. Hopefully they'll get everything recorded and funded. We already have a key but if we go in before it's funded we'll be in trouble. So our official moving day will be Saturday since that's when everyone will be available to help. I wish I would have ordered internet and cable sooner then I did. Now I won't have it until the middle of next week. :( So that means I'll miss my morning routine of watching ER at 9. I'll be super sad. I love that show!!!!

We'll see if it happens

We now know that we will be closing tomorrow and gettings our keys on Christmas Eve. We are going to try to move as much stuff as possible that day so we're gonna end up sleeping at my parents house on Christmas Eve. I don't want to open presents in an empty apartment or an unorganized house. How lame is that?

Stupid Stupid Stupid!

When I have a good attitute about things, they don't go my way and it's really starting to annoy! Now they are saying we can't close until next monday or tuesday! This house is bank owned which means it's government owned so it's going to take 48 hours for them to process the paperwork. Now what I don't get is that 48 hours from today is friday. Why can't we close Friday then?! This whole situation is just stupid and I'm so sick of waiting to move! There is no way I'm putting up Christmas decorations when we move in. I don't care if it'll be lame on Christmas morning. It's not like Adam is going to remember when he's older then we didn't have a Christmas tree on his first Christmas. But seriously, if we are not in that house before Christmas, I WILL LOSE IT!

Finally Moving!

We get to move in one week from today!!! I'm so excited! Now I really need to buckle down and do some major packing!

Closing

We are still hoping to close on the 17th which is next week! The appraisal went well, there are just a few things that are very easy to repair. All exterior of course. Just some pieces of siding misses and parts that need to be painted. I had my brother look at the roof before the appraisal and he said it won't last another winter but when they appraised it they said it was fine for right now and they couldn't find any leaks. So I guess we'll see what happens with it but we will definitely need to get new shingles put on in the very near future. Don't know how we'll get the money for that but I guess we'll figure it out when the time comes. I am so so so excited to move! I will miss our ward so much but we know that we need to move and this new house is where we need to be. This place is just too small for us! It looks like a tornado has gone through it! If anybody knows me then they know that I am a control freak and I have to be organized so I have been going crazy lately! Did I already say I can't wait to move?!

New Insurance

We've been getting advice from alot of people about Health Insurance. They all have very good points and so tomorrow we're applying for new insurance. It will be with Selecthealth and I chose pretty much the cheapest plan possible. It will be 220 a month with 1000 deductible and 400 deductible for prescription. That sounds a little ridiculous but we don't have any monthly prescriptions so instead of spending an extra 80 a month to have prescriptions we'll save money by doing it this way. It also said the deductible applies to all services first. I don't exactly know what that means but I want to stick with this plan. We'll be spending half of what we did for our other insurance. Sounds great to me! Any extra money is awesome since we'll have a house and I'm no longer nursing!

Moving On

I've decided I'm going to stop nursing. I'm just not making enough to satisfy Adam and so lately I've been feeding him from myself and a bottle. He only stays on for maybe a minute so I know he's not getting anything. He has started sleeping a little better since I've given him the bottle as well. I just don't want to have to worry about nursing anymore and he'll still get plenty of nutrients from formula. Sure it costs a little more money but I'd rather do that then stress over him getting enough. I get sick to my stomach if I drink a ton of water and I don't want to be in and out of the bathroom every 10 minutes. It's just better all around since we have so much going on. Anyways enough about that. Rusty's work is dropping the health insurance so I really think we're just gonna go without it until they offer it again. They just need to catch up with their finances right now and should be offering it again in a few months. So all the extra money we'll get from not having insurance will go into savings for emergencies in case something happens. I don't think anything will. We'll just pray really hard every night that nothing happens. I think the no insurance right now is a blessing in disguise. That might not make sense to you but I think it does. We're still waiting to close on the house. They're telling us either the 17th or 18th but hopefully sooner. Can't wait to move!!!

Another House

Well we found another house and put an offer on it. 4 days later we found out that they accepted our offer! Today we went and had an unofficial inspection which is what we did with the other house. We can't afford to have an official one. It went really well! This house is quite a bit smaller than the other one but it doesn't need a lot of work. A few minor things that are cheap and easy. We'll probably be closing and moving in mid December. I wish it was sooner but I'm kinda ok with it. That way we won't have our first payment until February 1st. I can't wait!

No Go

We are not getting that house anymore. :( I am extremely sad but after the inspection we got, it would cost way more than we could ever afford to fix it. I'm hoping we can find another house and be in before the end of the year. If we don't get our tax credit with our return then we'll be in trouble! Pray for us please!

Closing

We found out we will be closing the day before Thanksgiving. I'm not happy at all about it. Nobody is going to take time out of their busy Thanksgiving day to give us the keys so we'll most likely be getting them the day after. That gives us even less time to get everything done in the house before the carpet goes in that monday. I'm sure we'll have help but we could always use more! Can't wait until everything falls into place!
We moved our bed out of the bedroom so Adam sorta has his own room and he has been sleeping better. Just not through the night like I would like. I'm hoping I can ignore him better during the night when we have the house. That way he can get used to sleeping through the night.

Sleep... or lack there of

Adam has been a real stinker lately about sleeping. He has now decided that he needs to wake up every 3 hours and usually when he does, I feed him and he goes back to sleep. But not everytime. Sometimes he'll just cry no matter what we do. By that time I am so exhausted and don't even want to deal with it that I just give him Motrin. I feel like a bad mom when I do that but he does go to sleep after it kicks in. He probably woke up like that every night for a week straight and I just about lost my mind. Now it's just every 3 hours to eat. But now everyday around the time that Rusty gets up for work he wakes up and this is about an hour after he's eaten. So I have been giving in and putting him in bed next to me and everytime I do he goes right to sleep! I hate doing it! I try really hard not to but I also don't want to sit there and listen to him cry cuz then I definitely won't get any sleep. Blah! I can't wait for him to have his own room!
I finally stopped using the miracle blanket but it is really tempting to get it out and use it sometimes. But he always turns over on his stomach and gets stuck when he's in it. I just have a really thin blanket that I use. It's really frustrating sometimes though because he gets his arms out and then just rolls over and plays around. Of course he should be going to sleep. Did I say I can't wait for him to have his own room?
Yesterday Rusty took the paperwork for our loan to the bank to get the process started. The guy told Rusty that it would be 30 days which would make it the 18th of November. But he also told Rusty that it should be done by the 20th. Huh? Come on somebody just give me a dang straight answer. Oh and before he ever took the paperwork in, our agent told us that once we got the 3rd party signature which should have happened today or yesterday (still haven't heard) that it would be 35 days until we could close. That would make it the beginning of Thanksgiving week. Come on people! I want a straight answer! Anyways if I don't find out something that has a set date soon then I'm gonna go insane. I wanna plan everything!
Once we find out what day we close then we can set the date for the carpet to go in. But there are a few things that need to be done before that happens. We need to change the dryer from electric to gas, take down the nasty cottage cheese ceilings and ugly wallpaper borders in every room. Scrub down all the walls and paint. (I've already chosen colors that I want in the rooms. So excited!) Get a new toilet for downstairs. It currently doesn't have a lid so if you sat on it you would sink. And the back part of it is sticking through the wall so you can see it when you're in the laundry room so we need one that actually fits and we need to close and repair the wall behind it. We need to finish the tile in the upstairs shower. They didn't finish around the faucet so we have to put cement behind it and finish that. Hmmm am I missing something? I think that might be it. So ya we need to get all that done before the carpet goes in and then we can move in! So end of November we should be in there! I can't wait for everything to get done! Oh and we need to buy a fridge too! And hopefully when we get our tax return we'll have some money leftover from paying bills to buy a front load washer and dryer. I'm so excited!

Finally!

The bank has finally accepted our offer! Took long enough! Now we just have to get the loan and sign papers and wait for closing day! Our loan will be for about 133 because they said we couldn't include the cost of carpet in our offer or something so we just have to add the cost to what our loan was going to be originally. Fine by me! I can't wait to move!

4 months

Adam had his 4 months check up today. Apparently what I thought was a tooth is just a cist and Dr Hurley said he could drain it but it woudn't do any good so I asked why Adam has been crying alot lately and he said probably just because he is 4 months old. GREAT But on the plus side he is 15 lbs and 26 inches long. But of course he hated the shots. He got really red in the face and screamed for about 5 seconds. Then the binky made it better. :D Don't know what I would do without binkies! Probably pull all my hair out!

Adam Loves Jenna

Anytime Jenna is around Adam, he always has his eyes on her. Whenever she licks him he gets a big smile and it's like he doesn't want her to stop. I of course have to stop her because she usually goes straight for his mouth.

Adam's First

Lately Adam hasn't been sleeping as well as he had been so I thought it couldn't have been a few things. Not having his own room, not getting enough to eat or just teething. So yesterday for the first time I gave him rice cereal. He loved it and ate almost all of it! He did sleep a little better last night but before I put him to bed I decided to put some baby orajel on his gums. Well as I was putting it on I felt a tooth! It's on the top right side and it's just a little tiny white dot right now but you can sure see it and feel it! It's so cute! He must have been hurting pretty bad though cuz he woke up at 3 am and cried for about 20 minutes so I put more orajel on and gave him a little tylenol and he went right back to sleep.
We were supposed to hear back on the house last Friday but somebody from the bank was out of town so our realtor told us that now it will be this Friday that we find out. She has confidence that everything will work out so then it will take 30 to 45 to close. I can't wait to find out!

Much Better

Adam has been doing much better today. I try and go a little longer between feedings just so he'll stay on and it has worked so far. I'm going to give him a formula bottle just before he goes to bed every night so that he'll sleep longer and see how that helps. He's been waking up more during the night. One reason I think is because his binky falls out. Last night he woke up every 4 hours :( Not good! I want him to sleep through the night without waking up!

Adam and Nursing.... blah

The past couple weeks of nursing have not been fun. Adam doesn't stay latched on, he just sort of plays. So after about 2 minutes on one side I give up and try the other. Sometimes he'll stay latched on for the other side but only for like 2 minutes. And then he would get mad if I stopped. Well last night he woke up about 1:15 and usually I would stick the binky in and he would go back to sleep. Well, not this time. He decided to keep crying. So since I was really tired and didn't want to be frustrated while nursing I decided to make him a formula bottle. The bottle we had been using he wasn't taking and I figured out why. It came out too fast and the nipple was far too big. So I got the ones for 4 months and up and he drank it all right down and went back to sleep. And then I couldn't sleep for like 2 hours. It sucked. Part of the reason was that I kept thinking about whether or not I should stop nursing. There are many pros and cons which I'm sure you can figure out what they are and then I figured out what I'll do and see how long I can handle it. I will give Adam a formula bottle every other time he eats. Then we'll see how we both handle it. I wonder what Rusty will say because formula is kind of expensive. But it just doesn't feel like he is getting enough to eat when it's just me. I guess we'll see. I would really like your opinion about this so please leave a comment. :) Feel free to say what you want. It won't hurt my feelings.

Late

I don't know why I didn't make this post on Tuesday but on the 8th Rusty and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary. We went for a drive up Big Cottonwood Canyon and then afterwards went to Ztejas Southwestern Grill at the Gateway. If you have never been there then I highly recommend it. It is very good. I love my husband so much and am so greatful for all that he does for me and my family. I love you Rusty! Here are some of my favorite pictures from that day!

09/08/07

The House

Our real estate agent has told us that the owners have the house had an 80-20 so the bank that had the 80 part has accepted our offer and now we are just waiting on the 20 bank. I don't see any reason why they won't accept our offer since the bigger part of the loan did. So if everything works out the sellers want to close by mid October! I'm so excited! We have a pretty good feeling that it'll work out! I can't wait to find out!!! Hopefully within the next week we'll hear from the other bank!

Ridiculous!

Since having Adam, I have not been on any type of birth control. I had planned to get the IUD Mirena but my insurance won't cover it and I am really not good at taking pills everyday. So today I decided to call to see how much it would be without insurance for the IUD. Talk about re-dang-diculous! $740!!!! I guess I'll just have to wait for my husbands work to get their heads out of their butts and get better insurance!

Out

Today I was just sitting at home minding my own business when all of the sudden I hear a loud boom and see a flash of light outside my front window. Then all the power went out. I had just gotten out of the shower as well so I didn't have a hair dryer or a flat iron to do my hair. I called my landlord and then the power company and the power will be out until about 3 this afternoon. But I should be getting a call as well letting me know when it might be back up so now I am at my moms house using their computer. I hate it when the power goes out. I don't think I could live without my precious TV or computer for longer than a day at home. Anywhere I could but I like being able to do those things at home. Perhaps when I have my own house things will be different.
Then as I was getting in the car I turned the radio off to plug in my Ipod and all the sudden the sound quit working. I tried everything to get it to go back on but nothing. Today is just not my day I guess.

You'd better believe it

These are my real nails. Ever since I started taking prenatal vitamins they have been growing like crazy and are really strong. They look so nice because Rusty, that's right, my husband Rusty painted them. It all started right before we got married. I was trying to tip them myself and he saw what a horrible job I was doing so he decided to do it and it looked way good so now everytime I want my nails to look good I make him do it. :) If you want them done yourself just ask and I'm sure he would be willing to do them for you! I will make him!

Sleepin so Good

Last night Adam went to bed at 8 and didn't wake up to eat until 6! Then he went back to sleep until 8:30! It was so awesome! I hope this continues every night!

Finally something works!

DAY ADAM WAS BORN

2 MONTH PICTURES

Our Insurance is crap crap crap!

Ever since our health insurance was changed we have had nothing but problems. My Dr's office sent me to IMC for our ultrasound and they told me that's where my insurance would cover. WRONG! We didn't find out until last week that it doesn't cover IMC. And is anyone doing anything about it? NO! I am so mad! So then to top that off, it turns out they don't cover IUD's either! That makes me even more mad! I don't want to take pills! I could just scream at how mad I am and how much I HATE our insurance!!!! So now our debt has pretty much doubled!!!!!! Not really but we are still out like 5000 dollars because people are idiots!!!!

Busy Busy....

We have been so busy this summer it's crazy! We have gone camping every weekend for like a month and a half straight but it's been super fun! This weekend will be our last camping trip of the summer :( We are going to Rusty's mom's house down South in Delta. She lives on the Delta reservoir and it is so fun! We swim in the water and go riding on the boat. She also has 4 wheelers and you can ride them anywhere since it is such a small town. I am way super excited! My family is coming down too and this will be 3 years in a row that they've been able to come with us. I hope we can keep that going every year.

I don't think I have written about this yet but we are currently in the process of trying to get a house. It's in West Valley still but it is a little farther west. It's pretty much on the border of Magna and West Valley. It is a short sale home so there is no way of telling when we'll find out but we are so supposed to hear more info about it tomorrow so I hope the news is that we got it. It would be so perfect. It's a split entry 4 bedroom 1 and a half bathroom. (Hopefully if we get it we can change that to 2 full bathrooms someday.) It's 2040 square feet, kitchen, 2 living rooms 1 up 1 down, a dining room and a laundry room. Detached garage plus a shed and chicken coop behind it, covered patio, super long driveway, (not as long as my parents of course, nobody but them has a driveway that long) and probably one of the most important things, fully fenced! That will be really good for our dog Jenna. There are also already 2 dog houses back there plus my parents have one they said we could have so I know this sounds cheesy but I told Rusty we should put all 3 of them together and make a palace for her ha ha and also because someday soon if and after we get the house I want to get another dog so she can have someone to play with. She has been a little sad ever since Adam came home with us because she hasn't been getting as much attention. Since Rusty only got approved for 130 then that is what we offered. Well it's a little less than that, we had to add money for the carpet and closing costs. The people who lived in it before never cleaned up after their pets so when they moved I think the bank ripped out all the carpet in the entire house. Ya it was that bad. When we made the offer the listing price was 134,900 but they said that after we put our offer in they were gonna lower the price again. I really really really want it and hope we get it! I will really miss our ward but we are so crammed in this little apartment. We don't have a square foot left of space so we really need a change. I do still hope to hang out with all the girls from our ward though, they are way fun!

Adam is doing so good! He is my sweet little man. His such a good eater and sleeper. I am so blessed to have him in my life. He brings me so much joy, I don't even want to imagine what my life would have been without him. I never knew I could love someone as much as I love Adam! Can't forget my husband either! I am very blessed to have him also. He does so much for me and I know I don't tell him enough how much I appreciate him. I am so blessed and greatful for all of my family!

This was taken the day we got sealed together in the Salt Lake Temple February 7th 2009. My immediate family, a few cousins and Aunts and Uncles and Rusty's parents and few of his Aunts, Uncles and cousins. It was such an amazing experience. One of the best days of my life!

Same day, look at my little baby bump! I was a little over 5 months pregnant with Adam. It feels like such a long time ago!

My niece and nephews. Since this was taken I have gained 2 nephews and a niece. My brother and his wife had another baby and my sister got married and now has 2 step children. Next month I can add another nephew. My other brother and his wife will be having a baby boy. :) I can't believe how big everyone is getting! This will be the first year that more than one baby was born. I'm so glad Adam will have 2 cousins his age to play with!

I'm in picture mode today. Here are some more!

My brothers and sisters in order from youngest to oldest. Taken in April of 07

All the sisters in November of 06. This was taken for a Christmas present for my parents. Enough for now! More later!

Pictures

Yesterday I took Adam to get pictures taken. I did not realize how expensive it was gonna be. It was around 150 dollars and that was even with a coupon to get the first pose free. It was worth it though. At first he wouldn't smile very much but in the end we got about half of the pictures with him smilng. They are so cute. When I get them I will scan them and post them.

Love

Don't you just love it when your husband says one thing but really means another and then when you act upon the thing he origanally said he gives you a guilt trip? Well that happened today. We no longer needed our Chevy Malibu so we decided to sell it. We took it to carmax to see how much we could get out of it from them. Only 750. So Rusty says he wants to try and sell it to someone else. The guy tells us that it'll take a long time and there are alot of cars just like ours on Craigs list and KSL. Of course a salesman is gonna say that but alot of the things he said are true. So I say to Rusty that we should do it. So then he says fine and that it's up to me since it's my car. So I said we would sell it to them. Since it was only under my name I'm the one who had to do all the paperwork. Then on the way home guess who gave me a guilt trip? Yep! But then I told him a million reasons why it was a good idea to just sell it to them. Here are a few: 1. We would have had to fix a few things on it which we don't have the money for. 2. We would have had to do a major deep clean on the interior since it was Rusty's work car for a while. 3. We could really use the money we would be saving on car insurance and I didn't want to wait forever to sell it to someone else. And 4. We are currently trying to get a house so I just wanted one less thing to worry about. I think all of those things add up to the difference it would have been it we sold it to someone else. I really don't care if we could have gotten more money out of it. And who knows? Maybe we wouldn't have gotten any more out of it. I just didn't want to wait anymore.

2 Months

I can't believe Adam is 2 months old already! Time goes by way too fast. Today he had his 2 month check up and he hated it. He got his first immunizations and he screamed like I've never heard him scream before. It was way sad. But he calmed right down as soon as I picked him up. The Dr. said that he is in the 95 percentile for his weight and even higher than that for his height. He said he is the size of a 4 month old. He now weighs 13 lbs 5 oz and is 24.7 inches long. I can't believe how big he has gotten!

Sleeping

Adam is starting to get on a good sleeping schedule. The past few nights he has been going to bed at 8 and then he doesn't get up again until about 3 or 4 to eat. Then he'll go back to bed until about 6 to eat and then go back to bed again until 8 or 9. The naps aren't really on a schedule yet but he takes about 3 a day. He is such a good sleeper! He isn't ever really fussy unless he is tired, hungry or needs a diaper change. I really am blessed to have such a good baby!

I feel horrible

Today I got home from camping with my mom at Smith and Morehouse. Yesterday we decided to go fishing at the reservoir. So I don't know why but I decide to take Adam down by the water where she was fishing and was dumb and didn't bring the stroller or car seat down with me. As we are getting ready to leave I start walking up the hill with him sleeping in my arms. Well the stupid shoes I was wearing decided to slip on a rock and I fell and dropped Adam out of my arms. I watched him go down and land between 2 big rocks. I was so shocked and shaken. I immediately grabbed him and he was screaming at the top of his lungs. My mom was up the hill and didn't see what happened but I was shaking uncontrollably and starting to cry saying I dropped him. So she grabs him from me and tries to calm him down. Thankfully my Grandpa was there so he gave him a blessing right then and there. I felt a little better but I was still bawling like crazy. He stopped crying and fell back asleep but I was still crying uncontrollably. So my mom drove us to the park city urgent care clinic to get him checked out. Everything is fine. He just got a bump on his head with some bruising around it and some scratches on his face. The image of him falling will never leave my head and I will feel bad for the rest of my life. I am still mortified that it ever happened.

Adam

I absolutely love this picture

Not a very good one of Adam, he wouldn't stop kicking

Right after I took this Rusty handed him to me since he was fussy, happens every time.

I love it when he sleeps like this.

He came out with this mullet

Laying on the boppy

Kinda dark but I was lucky to catch a picture

23 minutes old

Progress!

I've lost 11 more pounds! Yay! So thats 32 that I've lost so far and now I have 23 more to go! Now all this extra skin and stretch marks need to go away too!
Adam is still sleeping really good at night. Usually he gets up around 3 and then again at 6 and that's when he goes to bed between 9 and 10. Hopefully soon he'll be on a set schedule and go to bed at 7 or 8 and still not get up until 3 to eat. And even though I've been getting good sleep, I still take a nap when he does ha ha. I love my sleep!

Sick

Adam had his two week check up on Wednesday and now weighs 10 pounds. When I put him on the scale the nurse told me to take his diaper off for a second and then asked to put it back on. Well it was a little dirty so I went to grab and new one and he peed and pooped all over. The nurse acted like it was my fault. She said in a very negative tone, "I knew that was gonna happen." It really bugged me. Well then another nurse came in to take the state pku test and she said "what a big baby!" Adam was not happy during the test. He was really hungry and I did feed him a little while before we left but we also had to wait a while before going in so he screamed the whole time she was taking his blood. But then as soon as I fed him he was fine.
Rusty has been sick since Wednesday. He went to the Dr and they told him it wasn't strep or the flu but they gave him flu medicine anyways and it was 57 dollars! I was so mad but there wasnt anything I could do about it. Today he thought he might have pneumonia so he went to the Dr again and of course it wasn't just like I told him but the Dr said that if he didn't feel any better by next Wednesday to call him. He has a really bad nasty hacking cough. It's way gross. Then yesterday on my way home from camping with my mom, my whole body got really achy and I had really bad back pain. I was bawling when I got home I hurt so bad. I had a temperature and cold chills. It was pretty bad so I had Rusty and my brother Blake give me a blessing and so now today I just have a little headache. I really hope Adam doesn't get sick. I don't think he will. And even though Rusty was sick and felt like crap, he got up last night to feed and change Adam everytime. One of the times he got up he fed Adam formula while I pumped so that on the next feeding he would have breast milk. So I got much needed sleep last night. I am very greatful to Rusty for doing that. I love him so much. I think part of the reason I was so tired and achy was the horrible bed I slept on in my moms trailer and it was also freezing outside since it was really rainy all day and the heater in the trailer was broken. Plus Adam kept me up half the night. He did not want to go back to sleep when he woke up at 2:30 to eat. Hopefully next month on the next camping trip things will be better. And hopefully Rusty doesn't get sick again for a long time cuz it's pretty bad when he is sick even if it is a rare occasion that he does get sick.

Sleep

Yesterday Adam slept pretty much all day so I was afraid he wouldn't sleep very much last night. I was very wrong. He finished eating at about 8 and we put him to bed at 9 so that's when we went to bed as well. I woke up to him coughing and I looked up at the clock and it said 2:30! I was in shock. I couldn't beleive he slept that long without waking up. I couldn't beleive I hadn't woken up either because I was soaking wet. I had leaked really bad and didn't even feel it until I got up. It was really bad. I fed him and he ate for about 30 minutes which is the longest he has ever eaten. Then he went right back to sleep until about 6:30. So I probably got about 8 hours of sleep and I still feel tired. But I was getting atleast 10 hours a night when I was still pregnant so I'm still not quite used to it. But on average I've been getting 6-7 hours a night so not to bad for having a newborn.

21 down 35 more to go

On Saturday night, I decided to weigh myself. I wasn't going to at all until my 6 week check up but I started to get really curious. At the end of my pregnancy I had gained a total of 55 pounds so I weighed 204. Yikes! Well I stepped on the scale and it said 183! I was really shocked and amazed that I lost 21 pounds in a week. It really motivated me to try and eat better to get back down to my original 148. Hopefully I can do it!

Adam has had lots of green goopy stuff coming out of his eyes I think since the day he was born. I didn't really notice until like 5 day ago. I'm not even really sure. I called the Dr and they told me it could either be a clogged tear duct or an eye infection. They told me that 4 to 5 times a day I need to take my finger and start at the bottom of his nose and push up to the corner of his eye 2 to 3 times and to do this with both eyes. They said if it still hadn't gone away by Wednesday to give them a call back. They also said that signs of an infection include high fever and the whites of his eyes will be red. He hasn't had a fever and his eyes are still a little yellow from the jaundice. Hopefully it's not or doesn't turn into an infection. Other than that he is such a good baby. I have been getting about 6 to 7 hours of sleep a night. He wakes up every 2 to 3 hours to eat and have a diaper change and then goes right back to sleep. Every once in a while he has been wide awake so then when I put his down he gets mad. At that point I usually put him in the swing or just sit in the rocking chair with him for a while. I really love being a mom! I never could have imagined what an amazing feeling it is to be a mom.

Getting Better

Today Adam had his final billiruben test. It was still at 14 but they said he is low risk so as long as he is eating well and having good stools then everything will be fine. :D

Another Test

Well since Adam has jaundice we had to take him to the pediatrician today after getting another billirubin test done. It is now up to a 14 but Dr Hurley said that he wasn't in high risk anymore because of his age. So he said to just feed him often and make sure I'm drinking alot of liquids so that I have plenty of milk. He also said we have to go for one more test tomorrow to see if anything changes. And he said we didn't have to keep the billibed any longer which is good because I'm sure it will already be very expensive. I really hope that the number goes down.
I hate that my hormones are out of control. I've been an emotional wreck today and I have no idea why. I couldn't tell Rusty why I was crying because I didn't know. I can't wait to feel normal again.

Jaundice

Before we left the hospital yesterday Adam had to get his jaundice test done. It felt like we waited forever. Finally she came back and said that he had it and that since we were going home we had to have a billibed brought to our house. She also said I had to continute to breastfeed like normal and give him formula. I was really hesitant about it not that I had a choice but only because I didn't want him to get nipple confusion. So when I tried to give him the formula he didn't take it very well at first. Later when I got home my mom and dad stopped by and she asked me if I warmed the bottle up first. I hadn't even thought of that. Well sure enough warming it up did the trick and he took it. He has been so good about nursing and using the bottle. I even got him to take a binky. I love it. Last night was a little rough with the sleeping though, I think it was just because of the billibed. He had to be in it at all times with nothing but a diaper on. The only times I could take him out were to feed, change or bathe him. So of course he didn't sleep all that much since he wasn't all bundled up. Thankfully I did get some sleep. I think he finally got tired enough to sleep for 3 hours straight so that was nice. This morning we took him to get the billiruben test done at the hospital to see if the jaundice is going away. It took forever for the phlebotomist to get all the blood. It just wasn't coming out very fast. So after that we went home and after a while I called about the results. She said it was at an 11.9 so I didn't need to have him in the billibed anymore today. Thank goodness :) But I do have to take him to get the test done again tomorrow but then right after he has an appointment with his pediatrician. Hopefully everything goes well. It is still kind of surreal to me that I am a mom but I am loving every minute of it! Jenna has seemed to take it well so far. She got a little concerned every time he cried last night. As soon as he would start screaming and I would get up she would look at Rusty. It was cute. Right now she is at the vet getting spayed. I'm sad for her cuz she'll be in pain and she can't go anywhere or even for walks for a few days. She should be okay though, they gave us some pain medicine for her. These past 3 days have seemed like such a blur, I still can't beleive all that has happened!

Yay!

Adam is finally here! Born early sunday morning May 24th at 12:53 am. 8 lbs 7 oz, 21 and a half inches long. Couldn't be more perfect!

Come on already!

I know I complain alot but right now I don't care. I am miserable! My hips are starting to hurt sooner than usual at night when I'm trying to sleep and everytime I turn over it feels like someone kicked me in the croch. (spelling?) Anyways I went to my Dr App again today and I am still only at a 2 but I am 80 percent thinned out so whatever that means. Again he said it could be tomorrow or in two weeks. He said if I don't go by next Wednesday which is the day after my due date then he said we will schedule an induction but I am determined to go this week! I just wish there was something I could do that I knew would start things and this baby would just come out! I keep hoping every night before I go to sleep that I will wake up with contractions but no. Hasn't happened yet. BOO! I want him out now!

12 days until my due date

I"m sure that if I was just a little bit more patient, the baby would be here by now. I'm still only at a 1-2 centimeters but the baby's head is down and I think he said I'm 50% think or something. So he said anyday now but he also said it could be another 2 weeks. If I go a week over then he will induce me but he said usually most women go into labor on their own. I really really hope it's this weekend. I am getting so impatient and anxious. I just want him here already!

I Love My Dog

I really would be lost without Jenna. My life would be so much different if we didn't have her. I know that sounds corny but it's really true. She keeps me sane. It's so relaxing just to hold her and pet her. And she loves to cuddle. I really don't see how people don't like dogs. Well actually yes I can but Jenna is different. She is the best dog. Anyways the other day I let her in the house and a little while later Rusty came home and told me to come look at what Jenna had killed. So I look outside and there is blood everywhere. I don't know how I didn't notice this when I let her in. She also had some on her side that I failed to notice until Rusty pointed it out. Lying there on the cement was a garden snake. Sick! I'm so glad she killed it. It was pretty long too. She is so funny. When it rains she'll dig up worms and play with them and kill them. Yesterday there was a bee in the house and she caught it but it hadn't quite died yet. It was on the back of the couch and she stood up on her back legs just wagging her tail watching it struggle. She finally picked it up and put it on the carpet and starting playing with it in her mouth just tossing it around and picking it back up. Then when it finally stopped moving she started barking at it. It was really funny. Man I freakin love my dog. ha ha but enough about her.
I went to the Dr again yesterday and I am still only dilated to a one. :( I am so ready to be done! I am of course terrified and scared to death and not looking forward to what my body will be doing for a month afterward. I really don't like staying home all the time but I guess I'd better plan on it for a month once the baby is born. But since he will be here it shouldn't be too bad.
I also feel like there are a million things going on this summer and if you know me I don't like to miss out on anything. I want to go camping alot to keep my sanity and there are 3 family reunions planned and I want to plan to go camping with my mom as well. Speaking of the family reunions 2 of them are for Rusty's family. His moms side and his dads and they fall on the same weekend. His parents are divorced and I know that they both would like us to try to be there. They fall on the very first weekend of August so I hate to ask this but Christa, could you plan Sheena's baby shower like later that month? I know Rusty wants to try to go to the reunions as well. Also in August we are trying to plan for the family to go to Delta again to play on the lake at Rusty's moms house. Last year we ended up going on Darrell's birthday so I'm thinking we might have to do that again. I still have to talk to Rusty's mom about it but we are planning on August for sure. June is too soon for me and his mom will be up in Park City in July so it will have to August again this year. I love the feeling of being busy and having things to do but not when they aren't planned. I have to have things planned and I like knowing right away when things are going to happen. I wish I wasn't that way but I really can't help it. I guess I'm just OCD that way, among many other ways. ha ha But I really am looking forward to this summer! Hopefully everything turns out the way I hope they will!

My Dog is a Murderer

Yesterday as I was taking all of my baby shower presents into my apartment (thanks again for the shower Christa) :D I looked over and Jenna was running around in a circle in the front yard and then all the sudden starts walking over to me with a bird in her mouth! I yelled at her and told her to leave it alone so she dropped it but I'm pretty sure it was at it's last breath because it flapped its wings once and then laid there lifeless. I felt so bad for the poor bird. Jenna looked sad that I told her to leave it alone. I think maybe she was bringing me a present, I mean why not? I had presents in my hand. Maybe she wanted to give me one too ha ha. It's funny to think of it that way but I still feel really bad for the bird. Luckily, so she didn't try to go pick it up again Rusty threw it away. Poor bird :( I can't believe I have a murderer for a dog.
I am so ready for this baby to come. Nights are really starting to suck now. I toss and turn like 20 times during the night and everytime I do I feel tons of pressure in my groin. It really hurts. Then today in relief I found out that a girl that was due at the same time as me just had her baby and he weighed 7 pounds and they are already home. Lucky! I really really hope I go early. I want my baby already and I want my body to not hurt anymore!

Oh yes I did

So I made this for dinner today and it was the best stir fry I've ever had! I got it from Gordon Ramsay's F Word, I am obsessed with that show right now. I don't know why but I really like his shows. Anyways this was so good!!! Here is the website for the recipe. I highly recommend trying it! You will not be dissapointed!
http://www.lifestylefood.com.au/recipes/2067/chicken-and-mixed-vegetable-stirfry-with-noodles

Hopefully less than 35 days to go...

I am so ready to be done with this pregnancy! As much as I love not having a monthly gift from mother nature I am so tired of my hips hurting when I'm trying to sleep and that really achy feeling in my butt after sitting for a long time. And I want to get back down to my normal weight! I'm sick of swollen feet and ankles! I really hope I go early!

I already feel like a Mother

Although Jenna is just a dog, I sometimes feel like she is my child. Well maybe not just sometimes, all the time. I'm pretty sure she can sense that a big change is going to happen in our house very soon because she has been acting up quite a bit. During the night 2 nights this weeks she has decided to leave me presents in the bathroom. Luckily the only present I actually stepped in both times was just pee but I happened to brush past the other with my foot. What a brat. I was pissed. I went over to her and spanked her butt and of course since I woke her up she tried to bite me. She definitely belongs to me and Rusty because we are both really cranky when we get woken up by anyone. I just hope she doesn't do this anymore. From now on I'll have to make her go outside right before we go to bed and right when Rusty gets up for work.

Goodbye :(

Last night was the very last episode of ER. I am insanely obsessed with the show. I wanted to cry my eyes out at the end. Here is the opening credits, mainly I just love the music. It makes me wanna cry everytime I hear it. I know I can watch reruns but it won't be the same as new episodes every week. I will miss it so much! :(

Music

Here is the amazing theme song to What's Eating Gilbert Grape. LOVE IT!

Love

Let's just say that I love love love this movie!!!! It is so amazing! I know he has pretty sick hair but I think Johnny Depp is so hott! And the music in the movie is also amazing! If you haven't seen this movie then I demand you go out and watch it right now! And if you don't like Leonardo Dicaprio then this movie will change the way you think about him! He does an amazing job!

Finally

Although it's only been 2 weeks since I've been to the Dr, I haven't gained any weight. :D It was such a relief to see the same number as last time. Hopefully it'll be the same the next time I go in. It's really starting to hit me that I am having a baby. I mean it has before but just thinking about how much my life is going to change is kinda scary. Don't get me wrong I can't wait, I'm just kinda freaking out about the space in our tiny apartment. We already have no room whatsoever and with all the stuff we are still going to be getting is going to make it even more crowded in here. I so wish we could find a dump of a house in a nice neighborhood that we could buy for way cheap and fix it up ourselves. That and I wish my husband could make more. I am greatful for what I have but everyone always wants something more. I try not to complain but it would be so wonderful to have those things. I just need to try and focus all my energy on the baby. I'm nervous but I can't wait!

Well I feel dumb

I went to Wal-Mart today to get a new ink cartridge because the printer we have only came with a colored one. It was starting to run out so I started looking online for the cheapest place to get one. SO today I headed to wal-mart and instead of looking at what printers it went with, I just looked at the picture to see if it looked like the one already in it. Well being the dumby that I am I took it out of the box and put it in the printer. Of course it didn't work because it doesn't go with our printer. So I lost 20 bucks today because I can't return it since I opened it. So now we're out twenty bucks and ink. How great.

My prayers have been answered

I am very happy to announce that I DO NOT have gesational diabetes. :) Here is the story of the test. I was asked to come in on Tuesday morning at 8:45 to start my 3 hour glucose test. I asked Rusty to give me a blessing the night before the test to calm me down cuz I had been freaking out a little bit. I had to start fasting at midnight the night before and could not have anything to eat until the test was done. I got there about 10 minutes late due to traffic but ended up waiting anyways because she wasn't even back there. So I had to put my name on the list and go sit in the waiting room. Finally after a couple people were called back she called me. I absolutely HATE needles. So of course I never watch. She probably thought I was a big baby because she asked me everytime if I was ok. So after she drew my blood she told me I needed to come back at 10:10, 11:10 and 12:10. So I went out yet again to the waiting room. The wait actually wasn't that bad because I had my ipod and a wordsearch to entertain me. About 45 minutes before my last time I started to get really hungry. It was getting pretty unbearable. So all in all I was poked with a needle 4 times and since everytime SHE draws my blood I get bruises, it now looks like I am a druggie and have track marks on my arms. On my way home my body was really really weak, so I stopped at KFC, I know probably not the best choice since I still didn't know if I had the diabetes but I did get a wrap so there. Well as I was eating my body started to get really hot and I was getting really uncomfortable. When I got home and out of the car I could barely walk and I was very disorriented. It was pretty awful. So I got in the house and plopped down on the couch to finish my food and didn't move for about 20 minutes. Then after feeling like I was on fire I suddenly felt like somebody dumped a bucket of ice down my whole body and was freezing! What the crap? Why does your body do such weird things when you're pregnant? So anyways, I really hate watching what I eat. I already have OCD and have to check the sodium on everything I eat so before I found out my results I had to check the carbs and sugar on the labels of everything as well. Today as I was cleaning one of the nurses called me but I didn't hear the phone so she just left a message. She said the test was normal and everything was okay. :D What a relief! I bet that I will still be OCD and check the carbs and sugars on every label. I guess I should anyways but I have been a lot better about what I eat and I will continue to do so cuz I do not want to be a blimp by the end of this pregnancy! I am so happy that I don't have gestational diabetes! You have no idea!

BLAST!!!

I guess I shouldn't expect everything to go my way and be perfect. My glucose reading was a little high so now I have to go in for 3 and a half hours to get tested again to see if I have gestational diabetes. So I think she said I'll have to have my blood drawn every hour. I hate needles so bad! Plus I don't know whether it's because I'm pregnant or if it's the phlebotomist but everytime I've had my blood drawn by this girl at my Dr I've ended up with a bruise and that has never happened to me before ever! Also my iron was low so I have to take an extra iron supplement as well. I'm already taking the prenatal horse pill and a calcium horse pill. Great! Why can't everything just go my way? :(

Time to scream for joy and madness

Time for an update, I know it's been forever but pretty much nothing exciting has happened. Until today at my Dr App. Well first I want to scream for madness because I have gained another 14 pounds!!!!! I am now up to 180 and I still have 11 and a half weeks left! I am gonna be the biggest blimp on the planet! I was totally freakin out when I saw the number on the scale today. So when my Dr walked in he asked how I was and I said I couldn't beleive how much weight I had gained. He said it could be because I have gestational diabetes which I was tested for today as well but he also said it could be just because I have gained the weight. I'm not sure when I'll find out my results but I'm hoping its before my next appointment in 2 weeks. Speaking of taking the test, I started to drink the orange crap and I didn't think it was that bad until I got half way done and it started burning my throat. Then I had to plug my nose to finish the rest. It was nasty. But I really wish I knew why I have been gaining so much weight. Maybe it's from the Taco Bell, but I don't eat that everyday. And it's sooooo good. I freakin love it. But I have been trying to eat better. I actually eat fruits and vegetables alot more than I used to. I have to wake up at 6 every morning and eat something so I always eat a banana. I try to snack on fruits throughout the day as well but there are also fattening and sugar things all around my house so it's very hard not to want to eat it. I really am trying to eat good though. I just hope I shed the pounds really fast once I start breast feeding. Okay now onto the scream for joy part. My Dr has said that since he loves me he is going to deliver my baby! I was so happy when he said that! But starting in April I have to have my Dr appointments on Wednesday morning instead of afternoons, which is totally fine. He did say though that sometimes he can't always be there to deliver his patients babies so he said one of his colleagues might have to do it if he is busy but atleast he is planning on it! I am so so happy! That kinda made me feel better about how much I have gained but now entirely. I am still freaking out a little bit.

Call Me Crazy Or...

Well I don't know if you would call me crazy, smart or both. I really don't know what to think of it myself but I'm kinda glad I did it. First let me say that I was stupid to begin with and used a credit card to go on our 1 year anniversary back in September. I thought I knew everything and just said that I would work alot and pay it all back. WRONG. I got pregnant and was really sick and there haven't been any jobs! Typical that would happen to me just so I would learn a lesson. Well since we got quite alot back on our taxes I decided to catch up on rent, pay off a dentist bill and pay off my credit card. But going to the Dr last week changed my mind. I know I should probably pay off the high interest credit card first but I think that paying our deductible for the Dr. instead will help us alot more. So I put a little toward the card and the 500 towards the Dr. Now since our deductible is 1000 I still have some to pay but everytime I pay Lab Corp and stuff like that it goes towards my deductible. So PLEASE CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG but we might have almost everything paid for the baby by the time he gets here. Atleast I hope, I'm still confused a little bit about it. Someone want to try to explain?

Great

So when I went to the Dr last week I discovered that I've gained another 7 pounds! That is 20 so far! I am so scared I'm gonna be a blimp by the end. I try to eat healthy but alot of the things are so expensive. Blah plus I don't know how we're gonna pay the flippin deductable. Or anything else for that matter. I really hate money. And I still really hate the fact that my Dr is retiring. And now I come to find out that Dr Hughes is retired already! Great! But I think I will go with Dr. Rappleye. My mom said he was in the same office when she went to Dr. Hughes and I think she said he was pretty good. It's either him or Dr. Brown. I'm pretty sure my next appointment will be my last one with Dr. Barton so I'll have to see who he recommends. I just wish time would go by just a little faster, but not to fast since I'm still deathly afraid. I'm tired of being bored all the time. Well there I go being negative again. Oh well

Dishwasher

Growing up in my parents house we always had a dishwasher. Atleast I'm pretty sure. I never really appreciated how nice it was to have one until I moved in with my husband after we got married. I had done dishes before by hand at my jobs but actually not having one in your own place really sucked. Rusty and I usually tried to take turns doing them but it was usually me. Well I got really tired of that so after we saw how much we were getting back on taxes then I thought I should start looking. We can't actually have one that is hooked up all the time so I looked for new portable ones. Holy crap! I did not realize how expensive they are! So I looked on ksl and we ended getting one for 130 but we had to buy a part for it so it came close to 150. But I absolutely love it! It is going to make things so much easier when the baby is here, I mean it already has made things easier but it will be even easier not to break my back standing there doing them all by hand and taking my time away. ha ha I guess right now it doesn't matter since I don't do much but that's beside the point. Anyways I love having a dishwasher!

I don't want to...

I know I'm still young and I have a long way to go, but I don't want to get old. And by old I mean like 70 or 80. I've always thought this but today even more. I was with my mom and grandma today and just seeing all the bad things of getting old scares me. I know there are good things but what if I lose my mind like my grandma? How awful would that be. I hate to come off as negative nancy and I know I should be more positive but just being around my grandma made me think alot. I feel so bad cuz we all laugh alot at the silly things she does but she doesn't understand. Like one funny thing she did was double and triple dip her fries into the fry sauce. It was pretty funny. And then I guess she thought she had to eat all the food on her plate so pretty soon she just starting storing the food in her mouth like a chipmunk. Then my mom finally took the plate away so she would stop, she started patting her cheeks to indicate she had food in her mouth. It took her like 20 minutes to finally swallow it all. It makes me wonder what could be going through her mind when she doesn't ever speak.

Just a Thought

So I'm thinking I'm going to ask my current Dr. about another Dr. in the same office. Dr. Hughes. He was my mom's Dr. when she was pregnant with me and he also delivered me. So at my next appointment I'm going to ask Dr. Barton about him. My mom said he is a really good Dr. so I will most likely go to him. Unless he is the goofy Dr. Christa talked about. haha My insurance does cover him but we are also supposed to be getting new (better) insurance in the next month or two so the new insurance will hopefully cover him as well.
I feel alot better about everything. My husband gave me a blessing when we were at an interview with the Bishop the other night. We still need to get into the Stake President and then we can set a day to go through the temple and see when Rusty's mom can come up and be here for everything. So hopefully in the next couple weeks we'll have a date set.

The Sorta Bad, The Good, and The Bad

First the sorta bad. Monday at my ultrasound the technician had said that the baby might have a clubbed foot. She told us she wasn't 100% sure because she couldn't get a good enough picture of it. So today at my actual Dr. App. he had said that the baby DOES have a clubbed foot. I had also told him that they said they weren't sure and he said that was what they wrote down so we still don't even know for sure. Now the good news is that if he does have a clubbed foot then it is very easy to treat. The Dr. said that they usually just put a booty on the foot so that is grows normally once the baby is born. I really hope and pray that he doesn't have a clubbed foot but if he does then I'm glad its easy to treat. Now for the bad. My Dr. is retiring in March. :( He did say that he would refer us to one of the other Dr's but I still wish he wasn't leaving. He said he needs to spend more time with his younger children and he also just got called as Bishop so he decided that after 20 years of practice he needs to retire. I wanted him to deliver the baby. Duh. I want to scream. Blah :(

Something New

Well since I am an avid blog reader then I figured I should start my own too. I probably won't be very good at posting since nothing really exciting or interesting happens to me. Although I am pregnant and am expecting a boy. :D So that is exciting. Wow I sound really boring. Maybe my husband is right, I need to do something about me being boring. I hate admitting that I am wrong about things.